I feel like writing something but don’t know exactly what to write. Just read few last posts’ titles.. boomerang, randomness, acceptance is bliss not ignorance, another step.. Well, life keeps on changing. Perspective changes, people change and so do we. We hear both things. On one hand, Change is a part of life, change is the only constant thing and many more in favor of change.. and we also hear the opposite do not loose your individuality, do not change your originality, be what you are.. What to follow ? Is change necessary or not ? Or again like other things, is there a middle way.. trying a bit of both ways.. Adjusting with life without changing yourself drastically !!
I guess I am thinking about this only for past few days… Trying to understand the change in surroundings.. Both things and people.. Also I can feel a change in my reactions to those so called changes.. Just trying to understand what’s exactly happening.. I should not decide which change is wrong and which is right as I do not have the authority.. I don’t think anyone has.. We have authority only for what we do(!) Again last statement itself is ambiguous.. Do we really have the authority and maturity to judge our own deeds as right or wrong? If we are capable of that why will we do anything wrong anytime ? Nobody wants to do anything wrong if he feels it wrong.. Either we don’t consider anything as wrong or we just don’t do it..
Again, there is a catch.. At what time we are judging the things also matter. As Steve Jobs rightly said that dots can be connected only in past.. You can only judge what you have already done.. Neither what you are doing nor what you will do.. Situations do change and we try to judge everything with the current state we are in.. May be this is the mistake.. We should think about the circumstances also while thinking about any particular action or reaction.. Few things might seem wrong as of now but they might be necessary at the time they took place.. It can not be changed now but it shouldn’t be regretted either.. I do trust myself for what I do but I guess I need to improve that.. I should not question every thing I do.. I know my intentions are not wrong but sometimes I do cross limits whether for good or for bad.. But that’s the way I am.. I might be judging myself from other’s viewpoint but I guess its a mistake.. No one can understand me better then myself.. Others have their own prejudices and their views will always be affected by so many things..
I tried talking with few people to discuss things.. Got few responses.. I like to hear other’s viewpoints on what I am doing.. Sometimes it really helps.. One question being asked, Am I trying to run away from something? Am I getting indulged in new things or work just to overcome something else? Answer could have been yes in my earlier days but now if I ask myself the same thing, answer is no. I am doing things which I want to do.. Yaadein and IdleBrains are my dreams.. They are not my alternatives to overcome any of my failures or a way to hide myself from other parts of my life.. Things may sound complicated and worrisome to my near and dears but believe me there is nothing to be worried.. Things are complicated no doubt but that’s how life is.. Everything can not be simple.. And there is no fun solving simple things.. Will continue some other time..
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